Ah.. been a long time...

This blog was never meant to be for the public. It's just something personal that I enjoy doing. yeah back in school i was crazy about writing. to the extent (sp?) of making short stories and novels which i found them now hilarrious and ridiculous. But that was the memory of my childhood. I had spent most of my years living in writings instead of reality. Then after internet, of course everything became online and reality got worse.

Anyways, it has been half a semester since i got my new bunch of classes to teach. This semester everything isnt as bad as last one. I finally found myself more in control of my anger and I learned that kids, no matter how hard or loud you yell at them, never really care that you did. So I decided to be a calm version of me. Yeah hell I was annoyed by some direspectful attitudes but i keep myself reminded that these are just youngsters who are still searching for the type of human characters they want to be. In other words, noobs in the real life.

Semester break is over. I'm back to lecturing. Somehow around 10 days of being AFW, I noticed myself being lazy and disconnected from what I love doing. I miss the workaholic me. I miss being the "Miss-I-Want-To-Impress-Everyone". At this very moment I need to find the correct tune to start kicking ass at work again.

What A Crazy Semester!

So it's been officially 6 months since i became a noob in this new place, new job, new environment and it's been a rollercoaster ride of stress, excitement and challenge. But i am loving it. Looking back to my previous job where i had to do (mostly nothing) but stand under the murderous glare of the sun, being yelled at by architects and clients and rushing here and there through the mind-killing traffic jamn (however u spell it), i am glad i am where i am now. After talking to an ex-colleague from ex-work, i feel deeply sorry for those who are still floating around there, not knowing where to go and what to do. I am lucky. :)

Yeah i had a fight with a student who claims me being "biased". It took me down for a few days, wishing there was something i could do to make everyone happy. But i realized there's absolutely nothing i can do to satisfy EVERYONE so i just moved on, thinking that it's just ONE student. Okay, maybe 2. But meh, life is about improvements. I heard a friend once said that "life is 2 options, accept or change" So I accepted what i couldnt change (students' annoying attention whoring attitude) and I changed what I couldnt accept (being hyper sensitive about what people think about meh) and now all is well in the whole crazy student drama area.

I committed some minor mistakes which left me sleepless for a few nights. I went and fixed it one day and realized it was a minor fixable (barely can call a problem) issue. And i realized that it's not that hard to just face your troubles at this job. They don't expect perfection. They know you're human. And I am happy for that. I am given the chance to learn from my mistakes. And improve.

Teaching is what i have always loved to do. Yeah, sometimes it's like a duck talking to a bunch of chickens (it's so hard to understand Sabahan dialects!) and i always find my students either dozing off in class or texting their boyfriends, but it's the challenge! I try my best to teach them whatever crap they need to know, basically based on my crazy life experience as an "engineer" (barfs) for as long as they are interested to know. And it's cool that my colleagues are always offering help.

I think, life is good. I have space for so much more. Thank you God, for granting my wish and making this 6 months a wonderful journey. Cheers!

Panda Love,
Anne <3

Monthly Staff Meeting - April 2011

This is me grinning like a monkey. Today's event kinda picked up the pieces from the last one. I couldnt feel more proud to have (noobishly) represented my department in co-hosting the monthly staff meeting today. Yes. still the same partner, the one with the (teeny, tiny, disposable) crush. -checks FB friendlist to ensure the safety of this post- (surprising idc)

Anyways, everything went on smoothly. I saw for the very first time some teamwork and effort from my fellow colleagues, making everything organized and brilliant. From awesome slideshows to cutesy decorations and adorable doorgifts. Kudos...! Yeah there were some mistakes here and there but they were minor and fixable. At the end of the day, I got up feeling super happy and surprisingly satisfied. And i am still grinning for some reason ;)

Being a part of a succesful event boosts some spirit for me to keep doing what I love. Guess I am contented with how things are in my life. Cool friends, awesome job (tiring, but awesome) and a hope that love is out there :) Guess the sleepless nights are worth the trouble. I can now sleep until Sunday.

Just need to get some things out from my head (or not):D

"For my dreams, i hold my life. For wishes I behold my nights."

Invention and Innovation Competition Dec 2010 Session

One of the exhibitions for the Invention and Innovation Competition. I think this won overall. Something about creating an alarm system for motorbikes. Forgot the details.

Today my dept organized the invention and inovation competition. Overall it was lame as predicted. Lack of coorperation from the comittee members, lack of communication and a lot of awkwardness. I was the MC for the ceremony. Well, one of the MCs. My partner, R is a bachelor of my dept. Scrape that. R is "The" bachelor for my dept having to be the only one still eligible. At least that I know of. But it sucked coz between me and him was a huge hole of awkward silence that no matter how many times i tried to break, remained the same.

I actually expected more hardwork and more contribution from the staff, but all that happened was people acting shy, hiding behind each other, students walking all over the place, contestants getting lost and nowhere to be found, last minute plannings and the whole failure drama fell in the hands of the MCs for the morning. Sucking all the humiliation (and some guts), i think I managed to give a lot. What bothered me is how I almost fell asleep downstage. Why? coz of the tension there that can be cut with a knife. I know i must have fallen asleep for at least 30 minutes. It didnt help that one of the reason for the awkwardness is that I had a little (tiny, teeny, disposable) crush on my partner. What? he's cute! But I think I managed to let that go, having to learn that there are more cougars around waiting to pounce on him and I don't really like competition.

Anyways, despite managing to look hot (at least I think so) in my new dress, I wished the event never happened. I was expecting something grander, it was my chance to outstand. Kinda tired of being known as the director's kid and not having an oppurtunity to stand on my own feet. (I was a national Public Speaking champion for god's sake!) I hope my dept or the whole institute gives me another chance to show my talents of hosting a program (without being tied to a script i didnt write) and kick some audience arses.

Panda love, Anne <3

A Welcome Message

Civil Engineering Dept Building #1, Polytechnic Kota Kinabalu

Well hello... first and foremost, thanks for visiting this page. I just got bored one day and suddenly decided to make a blog about my life as a lecturer. Yeah, not everyday you get to become the thing you always wanted to be. My dad has always been a role model to me. I spent my childhood feeling so proud when i tell my friends my dad is a lecturer. Now I am one. And It's an adventure so far.

I'm currently working in Polytechnic Kota Kinabalu, that's on Borneo Island (to those who aren't from this country) For this semester I teach 5 different subjects :

1. Contract Procedure and Building Measurement

2. Environmental Technology

3. Geotechnics (theory and lab)

4. Softskill

5. Dikir Barat.

Honestly I only enjoy teaching half these subjects. The rest are practically forced onto me. Yeah, being the new staff gets you to accept whatever people wanna give you.

So here's to updates on my life as a lecturer. If I have time, I'll probably upload some lecture notes and other interesting stuff. We'll see how that goes ;)